Photograph of Portland
music and lyrics by Charles Ian Chun

chewed and callused fingertips
hemp seed oil on my lips
to display an inverted grin
increasingly susceptible to affection I've been denied
false reality sinks in

jealousy is not becoming of me
it's like flowing lava that will not recede
but I cling to you like waterdrops that can't be wiped away
like herpes I just never want to leave

traumatizing chronology
optimism continues to elude me
a stranger I recognize
restoration of confidence that's been absent for so long
inconsistency wears its disguise

I may remain the same
but you seem so content that there's no need for me to change
happiness can be found in each
but I'm going to have to look somewhere else
it wouldn't be any different if I had stayed

misery follows me everywhere I go
I fantasize of what could be
but your plans have no place for me
jealousy is not becoming of me
it's like flowing lava that will not recede
happiness can be found in each
but I'm going to have to look somewhere else
it wouldn't be any different if I had stayed