what
do you think now that you see me?
it's unappealing
I know I could have done better with myself
I did this for you, you know
my personal rebellion
it's embarrassing to say
I did my best to look my best just to fail again
to live with what God gave me
I try to fool myself with some psychologist-sprung ego
and tell myself I'm handsome today
but it's hard to convince myself
everyone stares with derision
I'm still living with the vision
nose
in the air
she looks away because she knows I gaze at her
I'll never have her
don't
tell me I've ruined my looks
or got the garbage dirty
or wrecked the rot that reeks beneath your sink
I told you it's a statement
if you choose to call me ugly, I'll make it easier for
me to believe
